After moving, I am having a problem figuring out where I fit in now.
I am not a photographer. At the moment anyway. I have started unsubscribing from anything photography related on emails and facebook. I can’t even find the battery charger for my ‘real’ camera.
I am still on mommy groups on the computer, but my kids are 9, 11 and 13. Most mommy groups have kids that are infants and/or toddlers. And while Jeffy and I both love babies, I don’t see any in our future…
I don’t have any friends or family here to hang out with, have inside jokes with, go places with.
I stopped doing my day of the week on facebook.. I mean, really, how long did I do THAT for? lol. (too long!)
I am not really a blogger, although I am doing it more lately.
I am not doing a picture of the day.
All of these are just parts of who I was and I just don’t know where I am now. A title. A place.
And then I saw this quote. From one of my favorite tv shows.
You don’t need an invitation to your own life.” – Sarah Braverman
What’s that? It’s my life….and I don’t need an invitation to it. It’s mine. I can make it what I want. Within reason of course. I have a new start. I can make friends, I can be a blogger or a photographer again, if I want to. I can go play in the rain with the kids. I can do anything! It’s my life. Not yours, or theirs…mine!
I will continue being who I am right now and all the while learning who I want to be. I may never fit in again…but then again, I am not sure that I ever fit in to begin with…